Doormat mom finds ways to retaliate
Because she doesn’t stand up for herself, she tries to get what she wants through manipulation. She will make a major decision and later when my dad finds out, she will tell him he wasn’t listening when she told him months ago. She will think she is very clever in “tricking” my grandma in a similar way.
Because I love my mom and I’ve seen this cycle of behavior, I try to always be gentle, but direct, with her. I’ve also resisted her attempts to pull me into her door-matty ways.
It is so hard watching someone you love be constantly walked over by the folks who are supposed to love and support her. Any advice on how I can help her learn to assert herself?
You are understandably frustrated, and you are wise to resist this behavior yourself. But you cannot realistically change the way your mother moves through the world. You don’t say whether she complains to you (I assume she does). If/when she does, you should tell her, “I don’t blame you for being frustrated. But Mom, you basically train people on how to treat you. If you want to be treated differently, you’ll have to behave and react differently.”
But — and this is huge — she might not want to change the dynamic. THIS is the game she knows how to play. You (and she) might benefit from reading “8 Keys to Eliminating Passive-Aggressiveness (8 Keys to Mental Health)” by Andrea Brandt (2013, W. W. Norton & Co.).
He died of liver failure in November. I was diagnosed with breast cancer the day he went into hospice, and he died two days before my surgery. How do I sort out my feelings of disgust, relief, guilt and sadness — and come to terms with my own mortality?
Your first priority should be to cope with your health challenges. Get through every day knowing that you are taking optimal care of yourself.
Your husband had an illness, too. His alcoholism seems to have emerged as extreme and occasional binge-drinking. Every day he didn’t drink might have been a hard-fought and private battle for him.
One way to sort out your feelings would be to write about them. If you start the day with a goal to fill two notebook pages with a burst of free-association writing, it might help you express, and then release, some of these feelings.
You should also seek the comfort and counsel of a group. Al-Anon meetings might help; your local hospice will also host grief groups for survivors. There is no magic solution, but everything you try will likely help you in small and discrete ways.
I’d suggest reserving the maid of honor duty only for women you’ve known for most of your life, if possible.
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