Struggles leading to pregnant pauses
I have a professional career, where I speak to people casually and frequently. At work and in my personal life, I frequently get asked, “So when are you finally going to have kids?” and “Are you thinking about having kids with you getting older?” and, “When are you going to give me grandbabies?”
Not yet becoming pregnant has been one of the toughest feelings I have had to deal with. I want it more than anything, so these comments are difficult for me to answer.
I don’t want to make conversations awkward or put anyone in their place, but I’m tired of saying generic comments like “We will see” and forcing a smile.
Do you have any advice for me on what I can say or how I can handle peoples’ questions?
You also lob a bombshell at your husband, regarding “personal choices,” which you believe are affecting your ability to get pregnant.
Yes, you are hurting badly.
I cannot imagine any person — regardless of their relationship or fertility status — would welcome a query about something as personal as pregnancy. Why do people ask? In the history of the world, has this question ever been greeted with, “Wow — I’m so glad you asked me about that! I’ve been dying to discuss my birth control choices and fertility issues with a client/co-worker/mother-in-law.”
I suggest that you arm yourself with a no-nonsense but polite answer: “I can tell you’re curious about this, but I don’t want to discuss it. Thank you for understanding.”
You should also arm yourself with accurate medical information, research your options (such as IVF, adoption or surrogacy), and take a very deep breath and try to be patient with yourself and others.
You and your husband should sit down with a therapist. You may need more help to navigate your relationships.
For over 11 years he has told me that he could leave me easily, and at any moment. At first I thought he was just joking but NO — he is really serious.
It doesn’t seem to bother him in the slightest — talking to me this way.
Amy, I don’t want to waste any more time with him, knowing he would leave me anyway. I don’t mind being alone (but happy), rather than confused and sad all the time.
I need a peace of mind. What is your advice?
Being threatened with abandonment will keep a person off-kilter. It’s hard to relax into your true self if you are always insecure about your relationship.
Eliminating this threat would free up lots of mental and emotional bandwidth. Fifty is the ideal age to be on your own: You’re old enough to know who you are and what you want, and young enough to enjoy a second (or third, or fourth) act in life.
Thank you for advising her NOT to be a go-between for these two people! I made that mistake (once), and of course it all exploded. I lost the friend that I was trying to help.
Copyright 2019 by Amy Dickinson
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